I wish I wasnt so afraid of other peoples feelings
I wish I was the only one with the problem
I wish feelings never changed
I wish I could be happy all the time
I wish I could make everyone else happy all the time
I wish some people would never go away
I wish I could wish some people away forever
I wish I could turn back time even if I couldnt change anything
I wish I never got tired
I wish I was perfect
I wish I knew what perfect was
I wish love would last forever
I wish there was always something to talk about
I wish I knew what I wanted
I wish I didnt want
I wish I could be everything that everyone wanted me to be
I wish I
Inside this beautiful dream I fight for control
It is the perfect vision in all respect but one
It's not me
I'd do anything to be the me in my dreams
I dance, I kiss, I laugh, I love
but I am just an onlooker
I am trapped in this abuse
to watch my happiness in misery
Exhausted I strive to keep myself awake
Tortured with the thought of never waking up
The thought of death
To spend an endless eternity in my beautiful nightmare
Watching from a distance
Pleading for nothingness
No need to be exhausted anymore
As you lay your precious head
The perfect stillness and insentient
expression are immortalized in your stare
Your skin the palest blue, soft to touch
but oh so cold
Forgive me for the abuse but thank me
for ending this impossible nightmare
that was your life
You have cryed and trembled before me
Begging me please
Inside your mind I could see my serpent entwine
with strain on your soul
Soundless pleads, tired but enraged
Your cry is weak
Fading beyond darkness
Desperate and broken
With the faintest kiss I open you up
I can see inside and your confused
But I know what you want
Your lips say l
What if I died tomorrow? Who would listen then?
Is it the wrong place at the wrong time?
Maybe the wrong time in the wrong life?
What do I have to show for my great existance?
How do you forget forever?
Will the rain never fall again?
Will the angels stop protecting me?
Were they ever there at all?
When do I get my wings?
Wheres my claim to this forged saviour?
I have never been to proud.
I have not climbed this far for you to
gouge out these eyes that have seen so much.
Nail these hands that have felt so much.
Take this mind that has thought so much.
Break this heart that has loved so much.
What gives anyone the right to te